My ex is going on a date tonight w/someone who is 100% more secure than me,cuter,closer in age to him,& seems happier.I thot i was over him, but i'm so jealous.

How do I want to be remembered when I die? Not at all! I want my existence-and parting-to be as painless to others as possible. Maybe a generic visceral warmth.

I think life is a sham and worthless with no meaning. If I died, no one would miss me. I never want to tell my kids for fear they would see the world as I do.

molested when i was 6. 5 of my friends were murdered growing up. lost both my parents at 17. now i fake a smile to not end up in a mental institution

I dont trust ANYONE and never tell them my real life plans. I'm afraid they will wish for the worst & jinx me. I always have a fake cover story. Im very lonely.