I love you and cant figure out why. I think about u every day. we use to talk. havent in a while. right when i thought i was over you, you send me a message and it all came flowing back, i dont think it was me. i know it is you. you wasted your life on a man that used you and belittled you. so now when u have a real man in your life you do nothing but want to run away..

I spent the last 5 full days of Saigon eliminating 22 MACV's assets, I violated my case officers' orders by excluding an infant...

I love all of you but it hurts me so bad when you hurt yourselves with the relationships or the drugs or the whatever.

I want to be a ninja so bad and go out at night in NYC and eradicate the thugs who prey on innocent people. You can't trust cops!

When you said you loved me I ignored you, now that I can't have you, you're all I can think about. I just wish I could go back in time and fix it all...