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All of the constant bullying during throughout my school years has forever ruined my self-esteem and my life.

All of the constant bullying during throughout my school years has forever ruined my self-esteem and my life.

 
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I know how you feel. I also know how much the "you can turn your life around" comments are sheerest bullshit from people who haven't been there. Ditto the idiots who think you just need Jesus, or played too many video games, or some other conservative-pop psych fantasy. All that said. You can recover. Build up your arsenal of mood modulators. Yoga. Meditation. Antidepressants. Exercise. A good diet (e.g. Mediterranean diet). Keep your health up above all else. Mind control is important too. Revenge fantasies and hate only make you feel shittier. Find something else that doesn't. Revenge takes care of itself. As noted by other posters, ex-bullies make up most of the 45 year old fast food workers, grocery store baggers, gas station attendants and homeless people nationwide. I see my former bullies occasionally now, and they see me. We don't talk. Some still hate me, but all I have left for them is pity.
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Its only forever if you allow it to affect you forever. Stop the cycle. You're not a kid anymore, let it go and make yourself a new life. Being happy with yourself is much more liberating than sulking around and letting past people ruin your future. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
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Hi understand exactly how you feel. Please I beg you to get some help, you can always try Lexapro, it will change your life. I pray for you and I send my best wishes to you and yours.
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Mine too! I should have never bullied all those people!
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likewise.. i feel for you
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I was shoved around, insulted and robbed and spit on. My self esteem however remained remarkably intact. All of the punks who picked on mme have been married two or three times, gone to jail, and overall have remained friendless their entire lives. Even the successful ones have several divorces under their belts and are alienated from their children. Karma is a b****. Take the pain and try to forget about it. What goes around usually comes around to assholes like bullys usually are. I personally have three great children , a successful marriage and great grandchildren. Loads of friends and overall I'm way better off than my former tormentors are.
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It is hard not to fall victim once you have been indoctrinated through all of your formative years. You don't know how to prevent the attacks from beginning since you only know to keep your mouth shut and keep your head down. And even when you do hold your head up and try to voice an objection, the weight of all the betrayal that came before makes your argument lose its weight and it is like you never said anything at all. I hope you can find a passion in life for a job or a hobby or a cause that will distract you from these occurances and thay others will begin to recognize your strengths, gifts and value that are indeed at your core. Believe in yourself and try to ignore the fray. There are many around you who feel the same way. Hold on and explore all of your dreams, because they will make the journey worth the hills you are now climbing. Moving on. Moving on. Sometimes the answer is just Moving on. Stay strong. *hugs*
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f*** you, Tammy. She was my bully.
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I could've learned so much more in high school if I hadn't been beaten, kicked and ridiculed daily. I still want to find those kids and take everything from them like they did to me. It has been 14 years since then and I still want revenge. Luckily the universe provides, I have found that the popular ones that tormented me work at Burger King or have 3 kids by three different babies daddies....
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I fantasize sometimes (a lot) about seeing one of them out in town and following them, catching one, and holding them captive for as many years as they tormented me. I'm going to enjoy it! I hope it's a pretty one! I'm not really a lesbian, but damn I can't wait to poke at her with everything in my house!
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THIS IS SPARTA!!!
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Move where you are not known and start all over again - it will make a big difference! That's what I did and it worked!
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I was bullied in school, until I gritted my teeth and broke the one of the bully's nose with a good right cross, after that everything was good.
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Never give another person power over you. ONLY GOD CAN DEFINE YOU, GOD CREATED BOTH YOU AND THEM. DON'T DECIDE WHOM GOD IS FOR YOURSELF, ASK HIM TO SHOW YOU WHO HE IS, HE'LL REVEAL TO YOU WHO HE IS.
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Life at boarding school was kick ass or be kicked . Only the strong survive .
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Man up you PUSSY....Get a baseball bat and go looking for the guy's that bullied you.
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