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My Mother took her life 26 days ago. No notes but there were bags of stuff for us. I can't stop crying. I wish she'd have left me a note.

My Mother took her life 26 days ago. No notes but there were bags of stuff for us. I can't stop crying. I wish she'd have left me a note.

 
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I am so sorry to hear what has happened. I can not imagine your saddness. I am assuming your mom did not leave a note partly because of shame and depression. It is beyond anything you could have done, my friend. Journeys such as that are so uneccessary and beyond what most of us can do without the desire of the one in pain. Just remember, she would want better for you than she percieved for herself. So for her, be strong and for now don't look ahead except for one day at a time.
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Above, so well said.
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Thank you for those words. Our family is being strong and we are helping each other get thru this. One day at a time indeed. And maybe a note would have left too much guilt for me to bear. Perhaps it is a blessing that there were none. I appriciate that perspective and will hold that view today and see how it settles.
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yea man.... if there was note bro...thats allllll you would see in ur head... rereading it in ur head over and over and over again man.... shyt sux... sorry u lost mama
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard that is. Sending warm thoughts into the universe and hoping they land on you and your family. Stay strong.
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My mom has been dead for a longtime in so many ways. She is still alive but is not there in person. It's so sad. I understand how you feel.
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There is a GREAT book: Journey of Souls. Amazing. Might help with understanding that this is just your Mother's own journey. Her own soul growth. Cant imagine what kind of hell you are going through...
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i worry about our son when I take mine
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to the poster above. don't do it !
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I'm so sorry your Mom didn't at least leave a note. I watched my Dad die 13 years ago. Me and my sister held his hands and cried while he died. We did the same thing 2 months ago when our Mom died. 2 weeks later our favorite aunt died and last week we had to put our 15 year old dog to sleep. It's so hard to keep losing the ones you love but after a while the pain goes away a little and you feel more normal. Right now my sister and I are taking turns bursting out crying because we're the only ones left in our family. Everyone has gotten sick or was killed. It sucks but a good friend of mine lost her Mom, her sister who was also my friend and the following year her Dad. She's alone. At least I have my sister.... hang in there, we feel for ya!
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MY thoughts and prayers for peace go out to you and your family. Truly a heartbreaking story. Please know she must have been in pain somehow and had to relieve it. I understand that. My best friend killed himself. I still struggle with it but I know he must be at peace now- as your mama is. BUT know she watches over you and is with you still. Talk to her. She can hear you, darlin'.Blessings and love to you.
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Hang in there
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God bless you Sir or Ma’am and yes with time you will get through this and be stronger for it. Live, love and laugh, your mom would want you too. It blessed my soul to see all the kind words here. I get the feeling hope still exists…….Thanks.
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Thank you all very much for your compassion and words of encouragement. It IS getting easier. And you gave me a different perspective which rings true AND is a source of comfort. I will carry her with me always. She was a great woman. Much love to you all.
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Please know... You are not alone! The words you share to us, we hear and love and compassion will go out to you. Accept and embrace our words back to you. Talk to us again, we all are here for you--and poster above..this includes you, too!Love to you ~
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