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I was beat as a little girl. I am 15 now and used to cut to take the pain away, there isnt a day that goes by that I dont want to start again

I was beat as a little girl. I am 15 now and used to cut to take the pain away, there isnt a day that goes by that I dont want to start again

 
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I know the feeling of hurting so bad you feel like if you hurt yourself is the only way to stop the pain. But I have never been a cutter, I don't want to scar my body up. I learned this in Lamaze class. Put some ice and cold water in a container big enough to get your hand submerged in. Then put your hand in that water. After a bit, and not a long bit either, it will hurt like a son of a b****. It's really unbearable pain. And no scars or permanent damage. This should be used until you get help. You should never hurt yourself. So many other people have hurt you and let you down already. I was a prisoner until I was 12. My mothers husband beat me black and blue and kept me locked in my room. I'm free now. Things aren't perfect, but I know I will never let someone do things to hurt my daughter, and I will never be a victim again. Don't get sad or depressed, get pissed! Then make a better life for yourself. Success is the greatest revenge.
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Cutting is just an outlet. What are you using now besides secrets sites?
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Please,Please don't NO good comes from such behaiver
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Please,Please don't NO good comes from such harm
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i'm sorry you have such terrible memories of your young childhood. i really hope you can overcome your past, and create a happy future for yourself. you deserve it! good luck.
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please try to find another outlet, and do all you can to not begin cutting again. in time, it will get better - i promise you. try to love yourself, and you'll be okay.
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Listen to what you are saying. You were beaten as a little girl. You are out of it now. You have a new beginning, like so many you will have throughout your lifetime.
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Don't cut yourself, just have sex with the next 10 guys you meet. Then the next 5 girls after that. The finally, run naked down the street asking everybody you see to f*** you up the ass. That will take you mind off of the beatings.
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i shivered on a moonlight dip shyt fokuazoid.
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^^Great advice!
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Well, what happened? Update please....
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OP here: I'm almost done f***ing the guys, then on to the girls!
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girllllllllllllllllyou need some help if thats the case dont ever ever let anyone dominate you like that i know the abuse too and it never took over my being i surpassed that bc im a better person being someone that wasnt going to let that run my life i understand you are just a kid but girlll there are ppl that will not hesitate to help but it takes you to move and seek help dont give up you are stronger than you think love you ?????????
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I don't understand this new fad of self-mutilation from those who had rough childhoods. My dad beat the crap out of me on a regular basis and I never once thought about hurting myself. What's the point. Time to grow up, move on, and get back at whoever hurt you by showing that it didn't affect you and you are a successful, good person despite them.
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Why are so many (Males?) so cruel? What makes some get pleasure from beating wives, girlfriends, or their children. These people should also be considered Terrorists, as they attack innocent, defenceless people. They are no different than the killers who "try to destroy our way of life". I really have no problem with these a** ****s being removed from the planet. They are stealing our oxygen.
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^I GOT censored on ASSHOLES?? 2 posts ago, some stupid ShIthead was talking about "Dumb CuNtS". Admin, get a grip, and get real! Priorities, please.
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As an 6ft2 strong adult male, I could never understand how anyone could beat or hit another person, let alone a woman or child Period! I was never hit in my life and when I get home from the office tonight, I am going to hug my wife and family even harder. There is something that I do know so I will tell it to you and it's something for you to remember while you are going through this crap.... Things will get better.... They always do. You have the power in your mind to stop feeling the way you do. The problem is that you simply do not understand how to unleash that power yet. Go and get some help as soon as you can child. When you learn that "mindpower" that I am talking about, NOTHING will be able to stop you ever again. Nothing! Remember what I just said.
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^^^Great, mature advice.
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Seek a therapist. I don't know what resources you have, but your school may be able to set you up. It will be worth it because you need support. You need to learn how to undo the damage that was inflicted upon you.
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