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My secret? I hate myself for still loving you. And the questions in my head. No trust=No relationship. I moved 241 miles for you. You didnt move an inch for me.

My secret? I hate myself for still loving you. And the questions in my head. No trust=No relationship. I moved 241 miles for you. You didnt move an inch for me.

 
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The moral is- DO NOT move to be with someone. If they love you, they'll come to you!
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You moved 241 miles, and you counted every one of them.
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I am at the end of a 17 year marriage and I spent alot of time hating myself for continuing to love him after he left me and cheated and screwed me finanacially. All I can tell you is to forgive yourself and be kind to yourself. Get into therapy and heal yourself. Take care and remember to thine own self be true!
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Op here. Actually I guess I dont "hate" myself for loving still. Loving someone is harder than hate in some cases. It just really hurts. Everything about this situation is confusing. My suspicions tell me he never was what I thought. And no I didnt count the 241 miles. He did when he told me how many miles it was to visit me. Before I moved. Yahoo maps gives you exact miles. And comment one: Since I loved him as well, why shouldnt I have been the one to move? I dont regret the move. I regret being played with.
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Will you Marry Me?
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I am wondering if ur man is my ex who moved the same distance to be with me almost 3yrs ago only 2 learn he was running from something else where he was. he didnt plan on having our daughter -now he'd like 2 leave here but hell stay 4 her
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No, he has no children. Never wanted any. I just learned from a friend that hes been saying recently he wishes hed married and had a child. Thats what I was here for. He told me he didnt want to get married either... The pain that comes with that new knowledge is really hard to swallow. Just one of the many unanswered questions in my head. Why now? Weve only been broken up for a month... Who is he?
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ru sure he doesnt have a baby? ru in washington state?
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No, not washington. And Im positive he doesnt have a baby. Im sorry for what you are going through though. I hope it gets better.
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the best revenge is to be happy without them. there are lots of people out there that will screw with your head and heart. just forget about them, move on, be glad you didnt get married to him and dont ever fall for their bs again.
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5up- sorry 4 ur pain, babe u know i love u
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I know how you feel, my story is similar but it goes much much deeper. I not only moved for him, I kept him out of prison for 5 yrs and paid for his lawyer and everything and paid alot of money for the phone bills when he was in county jail awaiting trial, and sending him money every month. Before all that happened, he said he loved me soo much and was in love with me. Now... well now he says he loves no one. And never will. I caught him "somewhat" cheating by telling another girl he loved her and wanted to spend his life with her. And this story goes on and on. Distance yourself from this guy emotionally. I did, and now I can't wait to tell him to get the hell out of my house!!!
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