Left wife because i was gay. now since in the gay world i cant find love.now starting to think everyone is right about being gay, now im left alone,and it hurts

I hate my freinds. I dont know why I even call them my freinds. I pretend like I care about them but I really hate all of them. They always let me down at the w

I want to move to japan for school but have no idea how to tell my wife.

I fantasize that after sex, my boyfriend throws money at me and leaves. Then doesnt call me for a week.

im 34 my mom has 3 of my 5 kids. i have no money cant pay the bills, single and am totaly depressed why in the world do i go on as no one cares im alive