When I look at you, even when you don't know it, I imagine our future because everything with you in it amazes me. I want to grow old with you. <3 I wuvva you.

after being selfish and self centered most of my adult life, i feel a need to serve someone. i mean i wish it could be my lover, no one else, only him.

I have a strong love/hate relationship with Xanax. It makes me feel so wonderful, but I know it has probably damaged my insides. I am trying to resist.

I refuse to let people see me cry. I feel that they will think I am weak. I like to cry alone.

I hate my second cousin. She is a phony Christian. She gets into my business way to much. I have avoided a few Christmas dinners because she was there. FUCK YOU