I think I am suffering from post traumatic stress. I wasn't in war, I was in an abusive relationship. No one knows or suspects. I think I'm losing my mind.

I'm very intelligent(info/tele systems degree)but have no work ethic or motivation. I don't want to be a meaningless drone like everyone else.I want to be free!

Given a chice. I would rather stay home and drink beer all day.

I'm scared to love again. I've been hurt so badly before. I've run from it for such a long time. I think it found me again and I'm scared.

OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL PERPETUALLY THRIVE WITHIN OUR HEARTS, IT'S NOT SOMETHING WE NEED TO SEE TO FEEL IT'S ENERGY, EVEN WITH DISTANCE IT ILLUMINATES INTERNALY