I told her to pose for a magazine,and she did. Now I feel that im not good enough for her.

I'm just a horny old dude, laying here waiting for my booty call!! I can't sleep, because she mssg'ed me a pic. man. i'll be tired tomorrow!! Peace out!

I've come to the realization that being miserable keeps me sane. I can't handle being happy, it tears me up and makes me do irrational things.

I just want the pain to stop.

I'm developing signs of schizophrenia, I don't have any insurance, and it is scaring the hell out of me. I have 3 grown sons, what are they going to think?