At this very moment I am sitting in my car stressed because im about to walk into my boss's office...and turn down my promotion..im not ready for this yet

I am getting married in less than five months and the it terrifies me.

I listen to the title theme of the TV show Dexter every morning when I'm getting ready.

I have a free ride to one of the best universities and I feel like I dont deserve it because I dont think Im smart enough, So I always lie when U ask how I owe$

MY MOM TRIED TO POISON US WHEN WE WERE SMALL, NOW THAT SHE IS OLD AND SICK, I FANTISIZE ABOUT DOING THAT TO HER. I HATE HER AND WANT HER TO DIE.