Last August, I made out with the girl that was once my BFF. It was brutal, she had hair on her lip and it was in a park. Later I asked god for forgivness.

I made love to a woman for 5 years.....today she told me she was having sex with me for the material benefits of the relationship. I feel empty and alone.

I contemplate suicide so much that it feels unnatural to think about death. Im also not emo or gothic but just hate the idea that in the end theres no point.

When my father died, I tried to commit suicide by running my car into a tree on an impulse. Obviouslly, it didn't work. I broke my nose, and broke my arm. I told everyone I swerved to avoid a fox. Since, then I've gotten my life back together, but I never told anyone what really happened.

Yesterday I sang along with 'tears in heaven' as i cried holding the picture we took when i was a baby..
You where the greatest Grandmother as far as I'm concerned...