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My son was born with no kidneys and died 13 hours after I had him. I tell everyone I am fine..I secretly want to blow my brains out.

My son was born with no kidneys and died 13 hours after I had him. I tell everyone I am fine..I secretly want to blow my brains out.

 
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killing ur self wont solve anything get some help
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i feel a real sadness for you, please get help.
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May God bless you! Please talk to someone and ask for help!
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We lost a son in 30 days. No one ever will understand until it happens to them. Try to take comfort in the knowledge acquired through faith, that you have your own personal Saint. You have a direct line to the Father. Use it! Bless you and yours.
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Wow. I am beyond sad for you. You're in my prayers. Please don't hurt yourself.
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This happened to my mother. She was told she could hold her son until he died, and that is what she did. I can't imagine having to do something like that. Bless you.
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Have faith in the lord... He will help you get thru this sad time... God bless you!
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This made me cry
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Sorry
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You brought a tear to my eye. My heart goes out to you. Don't do anything that your significant other will shed more tears over.
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im very sorry...you should get counseling...best wishes.
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Wish you the best...It just wasnt time yet...GOD will bless you with a little blessing at the right time. Hang in there
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Stop blaming yourself for what happened with the birth of your son. God called him to heaven. God will give you another son to love and cherish. Lose is never easy, but we don't control it either.
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Your son is in a safe place- he will watch over you and send you his baby brother or sister one day, hang in there.
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i two had sick babies when they were born. for your son be strong, and smile. learn to love and be happy again. he's teaching you how through your tears. god bless you.
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omg im soo sorry :( this made mee cry also.
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sorry
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I had a similar situation. The Pain never goes away, but it does lesson over time. Please talk to someone about this as painful as it is.
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i will keep you and your baby in my thoughts even tho i don't know you. please let your loved ones know you are hurting.
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no one can take away your pain, and no one can bring him back. All you can do is live the life that he cant.
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I feel your pain, my son also died. he was 5 1/2 months old.
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I lost my 11 year old daughter, this has helped me alot. http://www.griefshare.org/ God Bless you!
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Dear, please take it day by day. You can make it and you have so much more to live for. Stick it out. The world only has one YOU. Call on your family and friends for help. Don't give up. That's not what the baby would ever want you to do.
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I wish you well and hope that you are able to get through this!!
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This secret really got to me because the exact same thing happened to my big sister. For all I know, you could be my big sister. Please don't hurt yourself.
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What if your next baby would be one who carries the same soul. You have to gone on for your baby's sake. You are a good, parent. You will be again. God hold your perfect little angel in his hands, rocking him until its time to come back to you. His little body just needed more time to make, so he needs another little body....so make it. God Bless sweety
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nothing is more devastating than the the loss of a child after 13 hrs or 40 years my god child at the age of 5 weeks was burried at a cemetary for only children it had over 500 graves being there was the most unnatrual feeling i've ever felt but u must know that god and all the other children are in a better place where there is only love and happiness and it only rains there for the children to play in there is no sickness only happiness and they will be there to welcome you when it ur time they will call you and u will be with ur son again
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Hugs Mama. I know your pain. I lost a little one 13 hours after her birth due to prematurity. i know what it's like to feel like you want to die too. you will feel the whole roller coaster of emotions including self blame, haitng god ...all of that. But it does get better. Talk to someone, even if it's a good friend to get all of your feelings out. Just remember you will ALWAYS be his mama and he will be waiting for you in heaven. you will see him again. Prayers and Hugs to you!
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Your son >IS< with God
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i cant even begin to feel your pain and i know that a sorry from a complete stranger doesnt help but when i read this i cried God loves you and that little baby
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my son passed away at 3 years old while i was putting my grandfather in the ground. (literally the very moment) there isn't a day that goes by that i don't want to crawl up in a whole and die. but my other children need me, so i press on. the load gets a little lighter knowing that you will be togetehr again. i'm sorry for your loss.
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so sorry to hear this...but try to find devine help ....all you have to do is look up and sincerely just ask...
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Your precious baby is in God's arms now... Please don't hurt yourself. You obviously have a heart with an endless capacity for love and I would venture to say that you have many people in your life that love you. Let them help you learn to cope with your loss.
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I feel your pain. I have never lost a child, but I did lose my husband of 15 years. I am only 35. It it the hardest thing I have ever had to go thru. The only thing that kept me going was my family. Give them a chance to be there for you and help you thru this difficult time. I will keep you in my prayers.
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Please don't hurt yourself. My thoughts and prayers go out for you!
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GOD please bless this daughter of yours. daugter will you please speak to someone. allow your feelings to be heard by another.No one can understand how it is to take such a thing to their own personal heart . I have love for you with others too. Please stay strong continue with the words Hope, Love, & Promise of a better future. God bless thee and all which is in her path. Amen+
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I'm sad for you. Keep breathing, and keep hoping. Please get some help.
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I too have lost childern and wanted to do the same! However,I feel GOD had BETTER PLANS FOR ME! I finally met my wife and now have two wonderful loving children who ARE the best BLESSING I have ever set eyes on! BELIEVE ME;suicide IS NOT THE ANSWER!! GOD NEEDED ANOTHER LITTLE ANGEL ! HE WILL BLESS YOU:JUST BELIEVE!!!!!
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i lost my wife i went to the priest and had a talk in fact a few it help me out alot please go talk to one dont do nothing stupid live out your life right thats what they wanted you to do
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I am crying for you right now. I can not imagine your pain. You don't have to be fine, no one should expect you to be fine. Cherish those hours that you had with your baby, and the time before he was born that you were one.
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The pain will never go away. U need 2 remember u were giving an angel... for what ever short time it was, that is something u need to tresure.
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I lost a daughter only a few hours after she was born. I was mad, mad at my husband, my family, mad at myself and mad at God. It was hard and still is. You will get through this.
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Please don't listen to those that say "God called him to heaven." That puts the blame on Him, not where it belongs. We are imperfect humans, sickness and death are part of imperfection. Sadly there are no guarantees in the world we live in. But in time God will correct all things.
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I bet his heart was bigger than anyones else you know. My Grandson, who was named after me was with us for 3 days when he passed from an incomplete heart. I am glad I knew him. His name is Swain like mine. He is in heaven playing with your son and they both are smiling at us. God is holdin gthem and loving you. I do March of Dime Walk a thons and share in the hope for future babies likes yours wil be better off. GOD BLESS YOU. I LOVE YOU
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i just hope you can find someone to help you through this. im sure the pain never goes away, but life still has alot of good,maybe someday you will be able to help another person deal with their pain. ive never written to anyone like this before ,but you touched my heart.you made me cry also:(
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I think your son would be pissed off if you did that. He didn't have a choice to live. Choosing to end your life is an insult to him.
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I can't imagine how horrible that is. Please find support from others who have been through what you've been through.
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I'm so sorry.
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a dear friend of mine had something similar happen to him. he felt the same way. he wouldn't come to my home because i have 2 children. he couldn't stand to see children at all. after a while, my friend and his wife adopted a baby girl. they are now happier than ever before. have faith, you will get through this
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My brother died of the same thing! I'm so sorry for your loss. Not a day goes by that I don't wonder how different my life would have been if my brother had survived.
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Remember that no matter what you will see your son again. Just as I will see mine. Peace will come when you are not looking for it
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sometimes god does something so drastic that we cant help but take notice...i feel your pain, my oldest son was taken from me when i was fifteen, i hated god and the world for taking him from me...it took me two years before i finally stopped crying at the mention of his name, and even as i tell you this i have tears in my eyes...if you leave this world you will miss out on everything that your son is, you have to keep him alive and move on...one day you will have more children and you will tell them of their beautiful brother and be comforted that you have such beautiful angels...dont give up, if you kill yourself you will not be reunited with your son and then what would be the point? i dont know if you have a significant other but have you talked to him about it...you need to have support from the people who love you...have a beautiful life and god bless you and yours
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your son was beautiful and he is now at peace somewhere where he can be free of pain...he may not have had much life experience on this earthly plane but his spirit and energy is tangible....you have to know he is still there...he lived for a purpose...he is special and so are you. Its ok to love him and miss him, but stick around awhile...theres more for you to do....donate to a kidney charity, support the causes that your son suffered from so that others dont face what you faced...life is hard but it is worth being hear. I wish you the best of luck
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You were worthy enough for God to give you an angel for a few hours. Why would you not think yourself worthy enough to keep living? Please go see someone and talk to them about how youre feeling. I am truly sorry for your pain.
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Talk to someone about how you are feeling. Killing yourself is not the answer. I'm sending loving and peaceful feelings your way.
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My beautiful baby girl died about 14 hours after I had her prematurely. You will get through this, I did 19 years ago. I went on to have 3 more healthy beautiful girls. But I will never forget my 1st baby girl! Stay strong and talk with someone about your feelings.
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please be strong. I'm so sorry for your loss. my heart and prays go out to you. Talk w someone and don't hurt yourself.
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I am so incredibly sorry for your loss:( There are no words that will make your pain any better but know there are people out here willing to hold you up when you are too weak to stand on your own... You are never alone Hun<3 My thoughts are with you and yours in this time of saddness, may god rest his little soul<3
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I am so sorry for you..
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I loss my baby . He was 27. They are always your baby. They will always, have and hold your heart. When they leave , so does your heart. The blackness never gets less sharp.I will always be his Dad. I will never stop missing him. I hope, you will be with your loved one , when your journey ends. I pray, my sins were not so great, as to prevent me from seeing mine.
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Im very sorry for your loss. We lost our first child, stillborn at term. It was a very sad day, an incredible loss of opportunity. It still is almost as if experiencing a full life was taken away from me. We got right back in the saddle though, and her sister was born on the same day one year later. She also has a brother that was born on the same day. While March 10th has become a day of celebration for our family, there are many other days that I am unbelievably sad at not having you here to celebrate life with all of us, Emerald. Daddy loves you.
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