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 My youngest memories are of my dad beating my mom. My teen years I was teased for being fat. I abused drugs and divorced. I have been depressed all my life.

My youngest memories are of my dad beating my mom. My teen years I was teased for being fat. I abused drugs and divorced. I have been depressed all my life.

 
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doesn't help that you are clearly sitting around feeling sorry for yourself.
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Sometimes the damage done mentally is NOT that easy to overcome. But it is possible.
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to second poster: O just snap out of it, it's so easy it's your fault you are depressed. I'm sorry sir but eat sh1t!
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^^^I am the Op. Thanks for the kind words. I have come to believe, and have heard others who are healthy say, that life is full of sadness, depression, indifference, and anger with interludes of happiness. I do not feel sorry for myself at all, at least I make a conscious effort not to. But life does seem to suck and really makes little sense for its purpose.
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if you break your leg, people advise "of course it hurts," "seek treatment," "give yourself time to heal." When you have emotional injuries, it's "stop feeling sorry for yourself," "get over it" "it's that easy." it's no wonder we're All so totally F'd up.
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I was in your same situation, only you can make the decision to pull yourself out of it with or without professional help and live life to the fullest for you, don't wait until its to late. Take control!
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apparently I have schizotypal personality disorder....whatever the f*** that means
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I there with you.
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I am the Op again. My life is not nearly as bad as it was in my teens and 20s. As I aged i mellowed about my life, but I am the first to admit that I am pretty jaded about many aspects of life. When it is my time to go I do not think I will be fretting much other than the worry of dying in pain. I do what I can to get the best out of life. I am in college for the first time as I pursue another career.
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In college? Way to go. That's a great step in the right direction. You will discover -- if you haven't already -- that you are not the sum of what happened to you; you are who you choose to be. Keep up the good work.
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depression is chemical. my story makes yours semm like a picnic yet i'm naturally happy all my life. even through the lonliness and pain. guess i'm just blessed by the grace of god.
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Don't worry, I love you :-)
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