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I have the pills. Im getting myself a nice lobster for my last meal. I am killing myself tonight. Im so alone, Im afriad that no one will find me when I do it.

I have the pills. Im getting myself a nice lobster for my last meal. I am killing myself tonight. Im so alone, Im afriad that no one will find me when I do it.

 
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I dont know who said "I didnt do it", but it wasnt the author. I found my brother three days after he did it. This site and posting were on his computer screen. He had been suffering for a long time, battling mental illness and depression. I havent been able to forgive myself for not knowing how close he was until it was too late. I didn't know anything was wrong until his work contacted me and said they could not get ahold of him. Before finding him I hadnt seen him in six months- he went peacefully in his sleep, he requested a cremation and no funeral. WE respected that. I only wish he could have seen the strangers telling him no, I wish I told him no. I wish I had cared. His ashes are being spread on Long Sands Beach in York, Maine, the one place he was always truly happy.
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Heaven and Hell are not PLACES. They are states of mind. Everyday there are moments of heaven and hell. You can't have one withoutr the other. One post up, this life isn't just something to get thru because there is something better on the other side. Don't live your life that way...that is a waste.
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I once tried to take sleeping pills to die, please don't do it. I felt these cold hands reaching to pull me into the floor everytime I started to drift off. It was the most terrifying moment in my life, but it made me realize there IS a Hell. ANd if there is a Hell, there is a Heaven. It is beautiful and full of happiness, and we are all just living this life to get there one day. Please don't try to end your life again. You have so much to offer the world before you go to Heaven. Please. I cry as I write this, knowing what you're feeling, and having been on that side before. Please.
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3 up says he/she didn't.
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Whatd you take? and poster above mine, they did, but didn't succeed. Anyways hope it gets better for ya OP!!!
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I am so glad you didn't do it. Dieing is easy..it's living that takes guts. I have been checking back here all week to see if you responded. To me, you are brave for NOT doing it. Please get some help. No one desrves to feel so bad most of the time. If you want to publish your email .on here I would be happy to correspond with you. (but I certainly understand if you don't want to give your email out in such a public place)
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Good luck! Wish i was as brave as you, or could at least like lobster. Best wishes.
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No I didn't do it.
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sorry cont from above every one needs love and ACCEPTANCE from someone.
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so much love on here do you reach out to people like this in your daily lives or just where its almost hidden
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OP,,,please please respond. I truly hope you found some reason to hold on and if you have, please respond
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Everyone always thinks it's either doing it or not doing it. Have you ever considered that maybe you will try to do it and fail, and end up in a coma for the rest of your life? Or have a stroke & end up in a nursing home unable to move and/or speak but totally aware, and live for years & years?
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Will we ever know if she did it ??
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2 up...are you the OP?
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I tried this Friday night, I don't know why I woke up Saturday.
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Did you do it?"
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Remember suicide is a permenant solution for a temporary problem.
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Please don't!! What can I do?
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Please don't do it.
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have a great idea how about screwing yourself to death, I'm willing to be part of the solution, hey after the first dozen times you may change your mind and start enjoying life a little more, you'll be sore but what the hell
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if you do it then you are doing the most selfish act you could possibly do. If you were really serious about it you wouldnt be looking fo the attention and would have done it.
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I guess you did it because you never wrote anything. Either way Im going to pray for you. Im going to pray for you to live peacfully and happily, and if you are gone, Im going to pray that you are in heaven. God bless you.
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Lobster isn't that great.
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This a permanent solution to a temporary problem....Please don't do it.
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This is God speaking. I love you and I am here for you just accept my son jesus Christ as your savior and you will feel the love you are so desperately seeking do it now.
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My prayers are for you,God bless.Find a reason to live.
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When life seems out of control, suicide seems to be the one thing that you can choose to control- the time and manner of your death. Yet it is within you to control your responses to what life is dishing out right now. I pulling for you to find a new way of being that will help you rise above your circumstances.
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Hey you can't kill yourself. Don't you want more lobster? Get some dessert. Hell go to a nightclub and find someone to talk to. I'm not religious myself but if you are join a church or something. If you want to die just remember its going to happen and you don't have to do it yourself. Lifes short. It isn't necessary to make it shorter.
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I've been there. And honestly, I've never come back. I'm there every moment of every day, because really, once it's become a question, no answer leaves you fully satisfied. But I chose to go on, and hopefully find a real answer; a reason to choose one way or the other. I hope you will go on too, and find truth for yourself. It may be the only thing you see right now, but the briefest moment of peace can change everything you see. I hope that moment comes to you, and you find yourself looking at life through curious eyes, no matter how cold they've become. You're still inside, so for your own sake, give yourself the gift of life, that you may find it's value in time.
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please dont Ive been fighting this battle for a long time. Please lets stay strong and fight on a little longer email me at apj24@yahoo.com
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please dont Ive been fighting this battle for a long time. Please lets stay strong and fight on a little longer
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Hi, your not alone. All these people on here, including me, care about what happens to you. I will pray that you don't do it, and that you will find peace. God bless you.
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Please think about the people that love you, how sad they will be, there are people that love you and want to help you, just reach out to someone. I will help you if you would like just send an e-mail. ginny_gin05@yahoo.com
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Hey.. if you haven't done it yet think of this one thing. You are probably wanting to do it because you feel that you are good for nothing. Well.. you can still be the best good for nothing that anybody has ever seen so now you have a reason to live.
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I've read all these comments... they are from people that care, you probably don't even know most of these people, but they really care and so do I... I got that bad many times and one day I decided that I have nothing else to live for, God stepped in... Please don't take your own life, the torment will never stop, give God a go too... HE always steps in.
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If you don't want a hotline, call me. I can relate. ac-jones@hotmail.com. even strangers love you.
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If you really wanted to kill yourself, you probably would not have posted here first. You want help. you want some one to care and you want someone to stop you. Please call a suicide hotline and get some help. I hope you get what you need. The hotline number is 1.800.784.2433 or 1 800 273 TALK. Please call.
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I said a prayer for you. Don't do it.
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Just think about this before you commit suicide. Those bad feelings you are feeling now.....they go with you if you take your own life and are multiplied on the other side and they never end. Please stop and think and ask God for help. He will. Don't stop Praying till He does. Dover's an idiot,suicide won't get you go to Heaven.
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No dont do it. Please dont do it. If you need to talk to someone I'll talk to you. Just dont kill yourself. You may think you're alone now but you dont know the effect it will have on others that love you if you do. Please dont do it.
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Don't do it. You do have something to live for. You just need to find it. Try to look outside of yourself. I'm praying for you.
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^^^^3 posters up...I am sorry about your loss. I will pray for you and your family, be strong and remember the good times and the great memories.
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DONT DO IT. You could turn around and be the one person that could change someone else's life. We all love you just the way you are.
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please call me at (260)224-8202. I'm T.J., and I lost my sister to suicide. I know how you feel because i think of suicide as well. But I won't do it to my family. You should call me so we can talk about it!
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If I ever kill myself, nobody will find me. I do not want to set an example for my kids.
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its a very selfish thought and a more selfish action, i have lost a bro-inlaw. he hung himself in his brothers brand new home. now his brothers and mother are still grieving. get help now. sucicides go to hell that should be enough reason not to do it
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Hope u didn't do it. I just read this. Please, if you are still there, email me, I want to be there to help you. I won't judge you, I understand loneliness. Lilbitoftxgal@yahoo.com (lil bit of Tx gal)
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There is always another option. Always. Life, your life, is worth it. I lost my fiance to suicide and I sometimes consider it myself, but there is more than what you think you know. There is.
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