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Even though I haven't used heroin since 2003, I still think about it - ALOT. If it weren't for my 3 year old son and my husband I would use again. I'm worthless

Even though I haven't used heroin since 2003, I still think about it - ALOT. If it weren't for my 3 year old son and my husband I would use again. I'm worthless

 
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I think thats great. Stay strong. You are sooo far from worthless. You are being very strong. stay strong for yourself so you can be good to your family too. Good luck
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You are NOT worthless!! The fact you are putting your family first and taking care of your son when you want to use is proof that you are not worthless. I am sure your husband and son know you are not worthless. No one is worthless, they might make bad decision and do things that are wrong but that NEVER makes them worthless. Stay clean and find some kind of support group or talk to some one you trust about your deisre to use again. You need to find some one to encourage you and lift you up! God bless you and I truly hope you stay off the heroin!
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excellent picture .... great photo .... look at it every time you feel the urge to use ... you're strong & i'll be pullng for you .
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keep the faith
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Hug your child everytime you feel the urge coming~ it will remind you what is more important! stay well..
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hang in there. Please! This is your second chance at life.
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You are not worthless...you have proven that for the last 7 years. No matter what happens do not go back to that junk. There are people who are counting on you. Good for you..keep up the good work
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ive been clean off of heroin since 2006 and i have a 6 month old son. ive been in the same position lately. if it werent for him i dont know where id be. but the scariest part is, that i know if i dont keep staying sober for myself i will use again. because if i only do it for my son, down the line, my addict mind will tell me that i can use just once and he never has to know. i need to do it for myself because when i really want to use, I will know when i f*** up. go to a meeting, talk to your sponsor, and pray. i need to take the same advice. your in a slippery situation, just like me, and i know tons of people in NA that have kids and still end up using again. dont think that you are any different.
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As long as you have ONE reason to stay sober, that's all you need. If it wasn't for my daughter, I would still be using today.
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I hate heroin addicts.
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Please do NOT hate yourself. I know its hard, but be strong. please.
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You are not worthless, stay strong, stay clean...lots of love.
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I just had to comment on how disturbing the photo is to me... sad...
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Alot of the comments above are right. Stay clean look at your childs eye's for strengh as they look back at yours for love and compassion. Mother is the word for GOD in the hearts of children. Stay strong we love you!
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do not beat yourself up!! your doing a great job and no one can tell you different. it kills me to hear people beat themselves up. where does that come from? childhood? i know all about pain. give your life a chance friend.
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No one is worthless; that means you too. You obviously love your child; that's the most important reason to stay straight-the next is you. May you find peace and be free of suffering.
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I'm feeling you so hard right now it's not funny. Take it second at a time, one minute at a time. You can do it, and if you fall down get right back up again. You can make it, continue to stay free because that heroin will never love and need you like your baby. The children of recovering moms like you and I, are here to be our lil' angels and we can't let anything foul come into their environment. YOU CAN DO IT!!!
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I'm going to tell you what I told my husband when he was coming off of Meth. You have to watch your thoughts, who you talk to, and what you talk about. Drugs are everywhere, but you have to set your mind on higher ground. If you're around users or even the material you watch on t.v. can all act as triggers. When the thought of using comes to mind, change that image right away! Go for a walk, or a NA meeting whatever it takes to stay at your best.
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it is tough to resist the pure and utter joy and warmth that the H-er provides. Just know that you can have this feeling everyday of your life with your family, if only you allow yourself to realize what you have. And after death, you will enjoy bliss beyond even what the big H can give. Trust me, i know. Dont ask how, you wouldnt understand. ~ Jesus
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Keep your head up! talk if you want to! bigdaddyccw@aol.com
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your addictive personality is also a part of your son you have to set a strong example for him and get over yourself.
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You're not worthless.
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i don't think you ever quit thinking about it. it's been 15 years for my husband and he said he still has dreams about it. so get used to that fact, and when it does cross your mind, don't dwell on it, find something to distract yourself. you were strong enough to quit, and you are apparently strong enought to continue saying no even if it does cross your mind, so you are obviously something other than worthless, and a lot stronger than you are giving yourself credit for.
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By the fact that you think you are worthless makes you worthy. You have a great start. I know you are worthy at somtething. Just admit it and scream.
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Be strong for your precious child. You CAN do it!
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how can you be worthless when you're taking care of your son and your husband. They need you!
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Don't beat yourself up! You have done a great thing by staying clean since 2003! You have to be a very strong person to do this! Give yourself permission to enjoy life, which is, after all, the purpose of being clean and sober! Good luck and G-d bless! (Clean and sober ten years)
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