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Losing my virginity I didn't give up my innocence. Small gestures still set me on fire and leave me wide eyed. You broke my heart, but will not break my spirit.

Losing my virginity I didn't give up my innocence. Small gestures still set me on fire and leave me wide eyed. You broke my heart, but will not break my spirit.

 
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I'm Catholic; "kept my pants on" like a nice girl in HS and college. I "lost it" in my twenties to older man on a business trip. I was nervous as a cat, and he understood. He kept his robe on, gave me his PJ top, and let me keep my my underpants on till I got over the jitters. He was patient and considerate of an inexperienced younger woman, and it turned out to be a very nice "first time!" My friends and cousins were "popular" in high school and college, in other words they slept with all the men they dated, and everybody in our small city knew it too. I didn't want that, and I'm glad I did the way I did, and nobody is the wiser!
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I hear so many sad songs and poems about people who gave everything for love and lose themselves in the process. I held on and thankfully I made it out whole and not shattered.
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I was worried how losing something I held on to would affect me. The only thing it changed was my view point. I now know how amazing sex can be and understand why everyone says to wait, but I retained my ability to see all the world and its mysterious with insatiable curiosity. He hurt me, but I still know there is so much more to all this and it keeps me in bewilderment.
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^Actually seems like she got the worst of him. He couldn't appreciate her spirit, so he most certainly did not get the better of her.
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INNOCENCE? YOU WERE USED. YOU KEEP TELLING YOURSELF THAT YOU GOT THE BETTER OF HIM.
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2^ stop sending me spam!
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you seem to be about 6 years old....what part of Kentucky you hail from?
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OP here. I expected to be giving something up, but instead it only opened my eyes to what I was missing. Reality is so much more grand than fantasy and delusion.
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Feels like the first time! Feels like the very first time! Seriously though, OP, everyone has to feel pain, but we have a choice over whether to suffer.
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cont... and used it to control and oppress women
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cont... I do not mean virginity in and of itself. We know females have a hymen. What I mean is that men have made it out to be more than a piece of skin straddling the vagina.
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Hi OP. Your post just goes to prove that virginity is phenomenon developed by men.
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In time you will be jaded from being f u c k e d over so many times. I miss the era when I still had my innocence and hope
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2 or 3 battalions of soldiers ?
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...my number has already surpassed 3 by far.
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OP again. Convention still remains. I am a girl and society would never accept me sleeping with multiple partners. My number will always be counted as 2 or 3 because anything more makes me a slut.
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3 up: Right. That fantasy and delusion has been concocted by men who pretend they are protecting women when in reality they are just controlling them. Good for you, OP. Enjoy the sex with as meny men as makes you feel good. Whether at one time each night or over a lifetime. Just remember to use a condom.
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my sister still has her "cherry"....but its pushed back so far it serves as a tail light !!!
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Pain only makes the pleasure that much more intense in the end ;)
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Hey OP, Fuck the post 1 up from here. If you are worried what others will say set up a dating profile with a site that states you live 50 miles away. Then date men(and their friends?)far away from your inner circle and those who know you in town. This way your reputation stay intact and no one will know another side of your personal life you share with no one else. Perception is reality, baby
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you must feel some trampishness/slutism to have mentioned it ! Think about it.......
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3
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Um no. Definitely not that many :/
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^...ut-oh
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Eh, more like basketball teams...
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I'm doing my cleaning lady....she's awesome !!!! the woman could suck a watermelon through a straw !!!!!
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I mentioned on here before that my mom told me that when I get married I should be a good cook in the kitchen, a good host for my husband in the living room, and be a whore for him in the bedroom. My parents have been happiliy married for 47 years. Sometimes they still innocently flirt with each other around others.
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I don't feel like a tramp. I feel lucky to be confident in my sexuality and never guilty about being turned on.
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Thank you ladies :) discretion is my greatest weapon against the world. I refuse to let what I enjoy behind closed doors define who I am as a friend and good hearted person. A lady first and a tramp only to a lucky few.
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Would you call me that?
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1 up. Good advice. It is exactly what I do, but I also do it with my two closest friends who are concerned for the same reason the OP gave about convention. We have a blast with our bedroom antics with other guys. Take the advice of the poster above. Always use a condom.
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